At times I find myself slipping into the seeming normalcy of my life; going to work, performing my routines, running errands, spending time with my partner Matthew, and doing things that bring me pleasure and relaxation. In these moments, I gain a sense of who I used to be before my most recent manic episode, … Continue reading On Psychosis & PTSD
This past year has been full of experiences and realizations that have led me to the conclusion that I need to not only totally revamp my identity, but also this blog. While I know that I started Mentally Buff with the best intentions (to help other people, to share my story, to destigmatize mental illness) … Continue reading Mentally ????
I felt like I died there in that cell. That I was reborn. That I was being given a second chance to live. “You did it all wrong, Alison. Try again.” Jail was purgatory. An in between place where I dwelled for a month and a half, out of my mind. Christmas came and went. … Continue reading Rock Bottom: The Perfect Place to Lay a Solid Foundation
Something I have noticed about the people I know who struggle with emotional balance and depression (myself included!) is that we have a much more active negativity bias than the people I know who don’t struggle with their mental health. That is to say, that our minds notice the negative in situations, people, and society … Continue reading The Power of Perception in Improving Mental Health
Discipline is Freedom: How Discipline is the Key to Finding Balance with Bipolar Disorder Some people are blessed to have mental and emotional balance built into them, while for others maintaining mental and emotional balance is something that has to be learned. I fall into the latter group of people. For most of my adolescent … Continue reading Discipline is Freedom
I am well acquainted with the feelings of nonexistent self esteem, apathy, lack of purpose, hyper vigilance, and absent motivation that accompany the energy of depression. And I completely understand how overwhelming a list of things to do can be, since getting out of bed can be hard enough when I’m under the influence … Continue reading 7 Natural Ways to Shorten & Lighten Depression
If we think about mania and depression as an experience of energy, we can see that they exist on a spectrum of polar opposites (hence the term bipolar). Depression is a heavy, dense, apathetic energy that slows us down, while mania is a bright, anxious, and passionate energy that speeds us up. Viewing depression and … Continue reading Controlling Manic Energies